August 2010
2 posts
Identity Crisis?
Sometimes lately, I feel like my 14 year old self again. It was around that time that I was struggling to figure out why I felt such a strong attraction to other girls. Were those the same “crush” feelings that I had for certain boys? What was going on with all the sexual “games” being played at sleepovers with female friends? As it turned out, I found myself quite...
Trying again
Well, damn. While I was writing the previous post, I was proud of myself for going two weeks without cutting. The day after I wrote that, I did it again. I was upset because of a number of different things. The cutting in itself ticked off my husband, who assumed I did it because I was upset about not being able to see the other guy I’m interested in. Sure, that was disappointing and I...
July 2010
3 posts
3:00AM
Since I started working the overnight shift nearly two years ago, I have hated 3AM. It’s not necessarily the time of night I start to get tired (that’s 4am) or when I begin to feel sick (that’s 5). It’s that if you work a 10 to 8 shift like I do, it’s the halfway mark. You look at the clock and think, “Wow, 3am! I’ve been here forever” and you...
I don't know where to begin.
I came across my old livejournal account the other day. I managed to lose hours of time reading about what my 16 and 17 year old self had to say about life. Did I really think like that? I said that? I let people read that?! I’m not too much older than that now. I’m 22, but I’m an old soul. Finding that, combined with my therapist’s suggestion to use writing as a...
“Everyone wants to be the sun that brightens up your life. I’d rather be...”